Diary of Fidelis

[Dandeao Fidelis]

Hello, reader. My name is Dandeao Fidelis, and I am but a humble student at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. I am, obviously, male- I am 17 years old- blonde, brown eyes; I'm the house of "Hufflepuff" and have been for some time now. This is my newest journal- or well, the oldest in existence, but the newest I've written in- I lost my last one in a potions accident. (Trust me, you don't want to use a diary after it is gummed shut with green acid-like goo.) This diary has been locked in my room in my muggle home since I was a small child, and got worn and torn from being randomly carried around. My mother sent it to me by owl when I told her I needed a new journal as a sort of reminder of home, and there are still a few token pages I had scribbled upon way-back-when.

(You'll have to pardon the blood stains on this page- Skuld, my cat, just dropped a writhing mouse on the parchment as her demented sort of gift to me. I'd rather just leave this with a few red dots than start the page over.)

So, I'll just write in this whenever something of interest comes to pass.

[Dandeao Fidelis]

It seems some quiz has been spreading the journals like wildfire- I found a copy of it lying around the Hufflepuff common room, so I picked it up, filled it out, and taped it inside of here. There where duplicate copies, so I don't think it's too horrid that I took one without asking...

Quiz

1.Do you write in a journal or diary?: This torn up old thing…I'm honestly surprised it hasn't fallen apart yet. I'd get a new one, but this one just reminds me of home too much to do that.
2.Do you keep an organizer?: For files? Lessons? Papers? Well…I have one for photos…
3.Do you believe in love at first sight?: I suppose. It depends. I believe that love may be first sparked at sight, though true love takes time.
4.Do you believe that every person has one soul mate: Definitely. They're out there somewhere, it's just the world is so vast people often give up on searching for the one person.
5.Do you believe in god?: Yes.
6.Do you believe in everyone (even the beyond helpless)?: I believe there is good encaged deep within everyone. However, sometimes that 'good' is buried impossibly deep down, and sometimes perhaps sealed with a padlock. I really wish I could say I believe in everyone, but some of those padlocks just don't want to open. Ever.
7.Do you believe in having a good education?: Yes. I have learned a great deal since I first arrived at Hogwarts.
8.Do you believe in horoscopes?: No opinion really
9.Do you believe in yourself?: Yes, and at the same time, No.
10.Do you shower daily?: -cough-Usually-cough-.
11.Do you like this survey so far?: It passes time, I suppose
12.Do you like the person that sent you this?: I don't really know who I got it from. I found it lying on a table in the Hufflepuff common room.
13.Do you cry easily?: It depends on the situation.
14.Do you believe in Heaven?: Yes.
15.Do you believe in hell?: Yes. Though I really don't believe that sinners remain in hell for all of eternity. I believe they repent with their own torment and are eventually given trials to reach enlightenment.
16.Do you believe in reincarnation?: Yes. Especially within animals. I believe that humans may re-incarnate into animals in disguise. It's nice to think that, anyway.

*Favorites*
1.favorite day of the week: Saturday. It's a day where I can just relax, and let time sift by without planning(usually).
2.favorite ice-cream:
3.favorite movies: "What Dreams May Come" with Robin Williams. One of the few movies from the muggle world I pay attention to, it has a nice theory of heaven, hell, soul mates…all of that stuff I try to believe in.
4.favorite actors: Don't really know
5.favorite actresses: Don't really know
6.favorite quote: Not really a quote, but something someone always says in their lifetime at some point. "I love you." Three simple words that can have such intricate meaning if properly used…
7.favorite songs: "No One Knows" from the Jekyll and Hyde musical- it reminds me of myself. I have lots of songs back from the muggle world that pop into my head now and again as well.
8.favorite music groups: Don't really know
9.favorite music singers: Don't really know
10.favorite holiday: Christmas. It's somehow always had a magical sort of feeling for me.
11.favorite season: I try to enjoy the world around me no matter what season. Though I do favor spring, watching everything burst into life and whatnot- the same for fall, watching it all fade away.
12.favorite colors: Purple, blue…I don't really mind. Most colors I enjoy, excluding vomit-green and other such hues.
13.favorite flowers: Lilies, Roses, Magnolia Blossoms
14.favorite book: Too many to name
15.favorite school subject: I like being in-between subjects, and being able to converse with teachers and other students. I like herbology, though.

*When you hear ___ you think of..*
1.Baseball: Memories of being a child at Muggle school running around the bases
2.Sexy: (There is a smudged eraser mark on the paper here.)
3.Red: Blood- and blood relates to pain, negativity. More positively, Roses, and my mother's hair color.
4.Warm apple pie: More happy muggle memories
5.Hot: Warmth, burns
6.Fish: Pook pook. My father was allergic to these.
7.Girl: Pretty (There are some more smudge marks.) My cat's gender, I guess
8.Amanda: Muggle girl back from muggle school.
9.Swimming: Water, drowning
10.Bologna: Tastes worse with maple syrup
11.Annoying: Bullies
12.Loser: Bullies
13.Cool: A breath of fresh air when leaning out a window on one of the higher floors of Hogwarts
14.School: Friends

Friendships*
1.Who is your overall~* top of the line~* best
friend?:
2.Who is your 2nd best friend?:
3.Who is your 3rd best friend?:
4.Who is your 4th best friend?:
5.If there are anymore, you can list them here:
I'd prefer not to list these. I might hurt someone's feelings.

WHICH OF YOUR FRIENDS...
6.Is the funniest:
7.Do you tell your dreams to:
8.Do you tell your fears to:
9.Do you go to for advice:
10.Have you dreamt about:
11.Knows everything about you:
12.Do you tell your secrets to:
13.Is the most shy:
14.Is the loudest:
15.Can't you live without:
16.Is the most trendy:
17.Can be the most annoying:
18.Lives the farthest away from you:
19.Lives closest to you:
Again. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings
21.What do you look for in a friend?: Loyalty

*Relationships*
1.boyfriend/girlfriend's name: -coughblush-
2.crush: -coughblush-
3.where does that special someone live?: -coughblush-
4.things you like in the opposite sex: Personality
5.when was your first kiss: That's a bit personal…
6.are you a virgin: For the record: Yes. I tend to sway away from sexual relationships.
7.the most romantic thing anyone has done for you was: Again. Personal.
8.which is more important- personality or looks?: Personality. Being pretty never hurt anyone, but it's what's on the inside that counts.
9.first boyfriend/girlfriend: That's personal.

*Creative Q's*
1.If you had the choice to spin around the sun, or
walk on the moon, which would you choose and why?: Neither sound too fun. I'd suffocate from lack of air, and on the sun I would burst into flames like a first year potions project. If it weren't for suffocating, I suppose the moon- but only if I had someone by my side.
2.What color do you think best describes you and why?: Light blue. A bit mellow, under some of the other colors, yet is strong enough to stand out at times.
3.If you could be doing anything right now, what would you be doing?: Hm. I'd be at home, in a cozy room by the fire, surrounded by the ones that I care about most.
4.Would you ever share you heart completely with someone else? If yes- who~* if no- why not?: Eventually I will share my heart with someone. But that time hasn't come yet, and that someone hasn't seemed to have appeared…
5.Which sense could you not live without, and why?: My ability to judge people. I seem to have a good deal of instinct on people's true intentions.
6.Have you ever written on a mirror? If so what did you write?: I remember taking my mother's lipstick when I was around five years old and smearing "kat" on a mirror. I couldn't spell.
7.If you could change one thing you did in the last 24 hours, what would it be and why?: I wouldn't have taken that wrong turn at Albuquerque… Hah, no, really, I just wouldn't have taken my cat into the library. She knocked a large amount of books from the shelves, and I had to pick them all up.
8.Do you prefer sleeping outside beneath the night sky, or your cozy bed indoors?: If it's a warm evening under the stars, that's a feeling I always cherish. But, if it's say, raining, snowing, hailing…indoors prevails.
9.What is the most beautiful thing in the world?: A pure heart/soul. I mean that in the non-serial killer way, of course.
10.Name one person whose changed your life for the better: Whoever sent me the letter to bring me to hog warts.
11.What can someone do to you that would turn you on fully- physically or mentally- or both?: I don't feel comfortable answering this.
12.If you knew you were going to pass away within the next few days, what would be the last thing you say, and who would you say that to?: If I where to pass away, I would be sure to return to wherever I was happiest in my life. But before that, I would speak with those I care about the most, and make sure that no matter what, they knew how much I cared for them, and that I would be waiting for them. Unless of course I ended up going to hell- then, well-- at least it's warm.
13.What is one thing that can make you smile no matter what mood your in?: Those I care about being happy
14.If you could meet anyone, past or present, dead or alive, who would you meet and why?: That's difficult to say, for sure. I'll think on it and write it in one of my entries someday when I realise it.
15.And finally, what makes you you?: I am who I am. My soul, I guess.

~~~True or False~~~
(T for true, F for False, N for Neutral)
I like my name: T
I am a teenager: T
I like school: T
I hate school: F
My school's cafeteria food is yummy: T, most of the time
I love the color black: N
I love the color pink: N
I took a shower this morning: T
My hair is its natural color: T
My favorite subject in school is Lunch: N
I am straight: T -disturbed cough-
I like Math: F
I own Rainbows: I like rainbows…I just don't know how you could own one.
I hate beef: F
I am a vegetarian: F
I hardly ever watch TV: T, though I do when I'm in the muggle world
I'd rather rent a movie then go to the movies: T
I get physical exercise every day: T
I have had an eating disorder: F
I am short for my age: F
I am tall for my age: N
I love hoodies: N

I hate it when: Someone takes advantage of someone weaker/littler than them. When someone abuses someone's emotions for their own personal gain. Selfishness. And above all, my own failure to be strong.

Ah…that was a time consumer. I'm late for class now.