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Post by Sirius Black on Aug 12, 2004 3:19:59 GMT -5
Ok, so on re-reading my diary, I find that I actually mention her more than she mentions me. Which is a bummer. It might be nice to be mentioned a bit more. Sadie's a proper person. Not like those stupid man-eaters. My boxers. Honestly.
Yeah... nearly every entry I've written in the past few days has contained the S word. Sadie. Sadie Butley.
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Post by Sirius Black on Aug 12, 2004 4:15:40 GMT -5
I've been so bored today. Completely bored. Nothing has happened. ARRGGGHHH! What the hell was that! Shite! Scrub it out! I DO NOT LIKE HER IN THAT WAY.
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Post by Sirius Black on Aug 12, 2004 6:59:38 GMT -5
My mind is seriously screwed!
Ummm....today. Nothing happened, except Remus didn't feel well. He spewed out the window. Not pretty. Believe me. I know. I saw! I almost chucked up, myself!
'Cos it's the weekend, we spent ages mucking around in the common room. ME and Sadie, that is. Remus couldn't join in, obviously!
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Post by Sirius Black on Aug 21, 2004 7:14:15 GMT -5
Sadie found out today. About me reading her diary. Big, big mood. Not good. I think I've kind of blown things with her. Oh well. I'm not going to apologise.
I think.
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Post by Sirius Black on Aug 24, 2004 2:53:43 GMT -5
Why am I so bloody stupid?! I APOLOGISED.
Grrr.
I found Remus talking to the 'better son' today. I wasn't happy. Not to mention the fact that Remus compared me to him earlier. I was so angry. I smashed a jug... cleaned up after myself, though. I was pretty proud of the bit of magic I did.
I reckon Remus fancies someone. Right now I don't know who, but I'll be working on the matter. I'll find out. Sooner or later.
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Post by Sirius Black on Aug 24, 2004 16:05:10 GMT -5
The dumb only get dumber. That saying is true. I apologised. In a very personal way.
I kissed Sadie. Only on the cheek... but I kissed her. And we're going out. Not bad for a day's work...
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Post by Sirius Black on Aug 27, 2004 15:40:36 GMT -5
Argument with Remus. Attacked Regulus. I would've killed him if Remus hadn't held on to me and Sadie kept me just under the levels of irrational behaviour... I don't want to talk about it.
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Post by Sirius Black on Oct 24, 2004 4:58:12 GMT -5
Too much to write about. And it's so depressing.
I don't know what's going on. Regulus... he seemed ok. Maybe some fraternal bond is present, after all...
But Sadie. She was hugging Remus, really hugging him. But that's beacsue they're friends. He was upset. That's what girls do. It just.... I...
I can't believe I'm saying this! My girlfriend wouldn't start on my best friend! Would she?
And yeah, Remus. Remus, Remus, Remus. Dunno what I'm going to do. Me and James need to do something - to take my mind off of it all. But he's always in detention!
I know! My map! Animagi... Yes. I was in the library (don't even think of saying anything) and I found this really cool book! All about Animagi. That's people who can change into animals... I'm going to try and become one. It's illegal, but oh well. Remus says he'll help me. I just need to see James and find out whether or not he's going to do it too.
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Post by Sirius Black on Nov 17, 2004 8:00:43 GMT -5
Why? Why does this have to happen to me? Everyrtime I become happy, someone takes a rag and wipes emotionfrom my life.
I hate him! No... I detest him.... No, worse than that, I loathe him!
Why did he...? Why did she...? Ohhhh....
I cvan't believe my own brother kissed my girlfriend. And she let him. She stood there and let him - and I saw everything. Why, why did I have to see it?
She showed me marks... on her arms, where he'd been gripping her so tightly, against her will - and Merlin knows I want to believe her... to believe that she didn't want to kiss him... that he forced her to, but... but she didn't scream or fight. Why didn't she scream or fight?
She sadi he threatened to kill her, but surely he wouldn't stoop that low - even Regulus couldn't stoop that low - could he?
Bloody hell... he could. Sadie was right, I know. I've just been kidding myself... I'd love to take her in my arms, cradle her, kiss her where he did and make it all better, but I can't.
I couldn't kiss her when we were going out - I was too much of a coward - but now? I've got no chance. I doubt she'll ever talk to me again, never mind go out with me.
She won't forgive me... not now I called her a whore. I didn't mean that. I hope above all taht she knows that. I was angry and felt sick and... I didn't know the truth, didn't believe the truth.
Oh Merlin knows why I didn't believ the truth.
I hate him!
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Post by Sirius Black on Nov 20, 2004 14:11:29 GMT -5
Big bust up with Lily in the Three Broomsticks, today...
Said I was being immature again. Conceited. Again. Arrogant. What surprise, she said it again.
I was only sticking up for her! Doign my best for James. He lieks her so much, and she couldn't give a toss about him!
I really let rip. I think I did quite well, though. I must've done, 'cos that Anya girl sided with me, and I even managed to shut Charlton up! Sirius 1, Charlton nil!
If only I hadn't of shown by boxers to the world... the magic I did. Or attempted to do, as the case maybe, it... well let's just say I was a little over-enthusiastic.
I still miss Sadie... I loved her, I think. I dunno. Maybe I'm too young to say that! But I liked her. Merlin, I like her a lot.
But I'm not thinking about her. Me and James... we talked. He told me I should get over her. So get over her, I shall.
I'm over her. Totally over... Merlin, I want her back....
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Post by Sirius Black on Jan 12, 2005 8:55:01 GMT -5
Yeah. I've been bad, not keeping you updated.
Well I'm not going to bother. Let's just say the last month or so has been shitty.
The only good thing that happened was me and Sadie getting back together.
But Remus liking me, Remus kissing Lily... it's also cancelled that niceness out. I'm noit even sure if anyone knows yet!
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Post by Sirius Black on Jul 8, 2005 6:50:41 GMT -5
Well! I'm back!
Yes, I went away. The Mother and Father called me back to Grimmauld Palace for a month or two, said I had been bullying Regulus and deserved punishment. So I had to take the place of Kreacher for a while. It's the second time they've dished out that punishment to me. It didn't work either time.
But now I'm back. I'm happier, 'cos I've been given the time (whilst locked in a cupboard... I tried to draw on my Mother's portrait) to think things over, and I've decided that everything that happened between me and Remus means nothing. I'm just going start anew, and pretend nothing ever happened. This is the last I shall mention of it.
There's one thing I'm still kind of worried about, though. Sadie. After the break, I'm not sure whether we're still together. Or whether we should be together.
Much as Sadie's a good friend, do I really love her? I think I'm a bit young for love, aren't I? I think it was just a childhood crush. And going out with her dredges up bad memories, too. It's not such a good idea, I don't think. I'll end it with her.
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Post by Sirius Black on Jul 21, 2005 2:29:09 GMT -5
Dear diary and all that rubbish. Not much has been happening... a few brawls, girls still swooning... oh yeah, and me and Andy turned Slutty Cessy into some modest... thing. And a girl called Devin helped, I s'pose. She's alright. In Ravencalw. Intelligent. Well Duh. She's a Ravenclaw. Reasonably pretty, I guess. Someone to bear in mind as a potential dance partner. If I'm rejected by Lucy, anyway. Which I won't be. I know she's a seventh year, but she's a sexy seventh year, in Gryffindor, half-blood, clever... you name it, she's got it. And she can throw good hexes, too. She likes me, I know it. She keeps stroking and patting my hair everytime I go by. She says I'm her 'adopted little brother'. But I know she wants me more than that.
Anyway. I'll get Andy to spy on her, see what she can bring up for me. Umm... I was looking at James' journal today. I know he reads mine, so why should I not read his? He tells me everything that's in it anway. And I found this quiz. 'Cept I changed the answers to suit me for I posted it in here. It distracted me from charms homework. I was happy.
About meh. First Name? Sirius Age? 13 Birthday? 17th May. Sign? Taurus Height? 5'11'' (Yes. Tall for my age. I know. It sucks.) Shoesize? 10 Eye Color? Dark brown/black Hair Color? Dark brown. Really dark. Best Friend? James, Remus, and Peter. Oh and Andy.
Celebrity Crush? Umm... not a crush. But that lead singer from the Pumpkin Pies is quite good looking.
Self Descriptive Song? You're amazing. Yet to be written by me.
Mom and Dads Name? Clarence and Annabelle.
Have You Ever~
Fallen Out Of Bed? Only when pushed. *Cough*James*cough* Lost Touch With Someone, Then Started Talking To Them Again? *Shrugs* Tried To Pierce Your Own Bellybutton? No. But it sounds rather interesting. Been In A Car Wreck, While You Were Driving? What's a car when it's at home? Oh yeah. Sadie mentioned them... those muggle things... No.
Really Truly Been In Love? I thought I was, but now I'm not so sure.
Do You~
Have Alot Of Friends? Yes. Know Anyone Named Megan? I think thee's a Hufflepuff second year, but I haven't spoken to her. Have Just One Best Friend Or A lot Of Them? A lot. Like Any Savage Garden Songs? We have a savage garden at home (Faher's tight on security), but I've never heard any of the plants sing. Have Blonde Moments? Not really. Talk To Yourself Often? Occasionally.
Who Was~
Your Current (or last) Serious Boyfriend/Girlfriend? Sadie, I s'pose. Though I'm not sure if she was serious. But I aam. Serious, Sirius. Geddit?!
The Last Person You Hung Up On? What? The Last Person To Tell You That You Were Hott? Well someone shouted it out as I was walking to the common room, but I didn't bother checking who it was. The Last Person To Make You Mad? Peter. He dropped the spot-sweep potion! How dumb is that?! The Last Person To Sleepover At Your House? You don't have sleep-overs at my house. Last Person To Call You? Breathless "Hi Sirius" from some fourth-year at the bottom of the stairs. The Last Person You Called? "Oi, James!"
If You Could~
Change Your Name To Anything, What Would It Be? I like my name. Date Any Celebrity, Who Would It Be? Anyone who is pretty and rich. Be Any Famous Person For A Day, Who Would You Be? I already am famous, in the school. But I'd be the minister for magic... and legalise underage magic... and underage apparation.
Be A Crayon, What Color What You Be? Black, cos then it can be used for outlines without looking dumb. Be Any Flavor Of Ice Cream, What Flavor Would You Be? Chocolate chip. Go Back In Time And Change One Thing, What Would It Be? Make it so that Regulus wasn't born. Spend $100,000 Frivelously, What Would You Buy? Let's make it Galleons. I'd buy the best broomstick out (With a good one, I could play on the quidditch team!), a hex book, and then save the rest of the money 'cos I don't get much.
Are You~
The Organized Sort? Nah. The Freaky Silent Type? Me? Silent? No. A Letter Writer? How else can you communicate? Obsessive? Nope.
Random Questions~
If Britney Spears Is A So-Called "Virgin" Then Why Does She Say "Oops...I Did It Again"? Who? What Is Your Biggest Pet Peeve? Archie when he crawls into my socks. Have You And Your Friends Ever Just Up And Went On A Road Trip? Confuzzled here. If So, Where Did You Go? N/AHave You Ever Made A Friend Over The Net, Then Later Met Them In Person? If you meet someone over a net, don't you already meet them in person? If So, Who Was It? I don't fish much. Is The Glass Half-Empty Or Half-Full? Half-full.
*****DO YOU***** KEEP A DIARY? *Raises eyebrow* LOOK AT YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR OFTEN? Not really. Just in the one me and James use to communicate. LIKE YOUR LIFE? Yes. HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND? Not sure. GET GOOD GRADES? Yeah. GET SCARED EASILY? Not really. GET HURT EASILY? Mentally or physically? Neither, really. HAVE AN ENEMIE? Snivelly Snape. GO TO BED LATE? Yeah. GO TO BED EARLY? No. SAVE YOUR ASSINGMENTS FOR THE LAST MINUTE? Yeah. All the time. Or I get someone else to do them for me. PRETEND YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT A CERTAIN PERSON BUT YOU ACTUALLY DO? No. KNOW WHAT YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP? An auror; that would just be the coolest thing ever. ENJOY SCARY MOVIES? Movie? ENJOY CHICK FLICKS? What when girls flick you? Not really. PLAY HARD-TO-GET? Yes. I think so. MAKE EXCUSES TO GET OFF THE PHONE WITH SOMEONE? Phone?
*****ORs***** GLOBE OR MAP? Globe SWEET OR SOUR? Sweet HUG OR KISS? Hard descision. Kisses.
BOY OR GIRL? Girl. PUNCH OR KICK? Where's the magic option? A duel always beats muggle fighting. LONG HAIR OR SHORT HAIR ON GIRLS? Long. LONG HAIR OR SHORT HAIR ON BOYS? My length. PHONE OR INTERNET? What are they?! SKI OR SNOWBOARD? I dunno what you're on about. SNOW OR RAIN? Snow. SONG OR PARODY? Parody. SLOW SONG OR ROCK? Rock. TALKATIVE OR QUIET? Talkative. SPORT-FANATIC OR BOOK WORM? For me? Sports. ROMANTIC OR NOT? In a girl? Romantic. ENTERTAING OR BORING? Entertaining CALM OR ACTIVE? Active TRUSWORTHY OR LOYAL? Both. Like me. FUN TO TALK TO OR FUN TO LISTEN TO? Both again. STUBBORN OR NOT? Stubborn. HARD TO GET OR EASY? Hard to get. It's more fun, and more satisfying when you've got her. MATURE OR KIDDISH? I'm both. I'd like both. SENSITIVE OR TOUGH? Both. CAREFUL OR CARELESS: Carelss. TALENTED OR CREATIVE? Talented AND creative. CUTE OR DROP-DEAD-GORGEOUS? Drop dead gorgeous. ANNOYING OR EASY TO ANNOY? I'm in now way annoying. And it takes quite a lot to annoy me. SHORT OR TALL? Tall BLOND OR BRUNETTE? Brunette. But blondes /do/ have a chance. OLD OR NEW? New. UNIQUE OR PLAIN? Unique. EXACTLY LIKE YOU OR TOTALY DIFFERENT? Somewhere in between. STYLISH OR NOT? Stylish. FUNNY OR HILARIOUS? Hilarious. PREDICTABLE OR NOT? Unpredictable. LOVABLE OR LIKABLE? Lovable.
*****HAVE YOU EVER...***** LOVED SOMEONE? Thought I did. NOT KNOWN IF YOU LIKE SOMEONE OR LOVE THAT SOMEONE? Yes. BEEN ABLE TO TELL WHEN SOMEONE LIKES YOU? Yes. BEEN AFRAID OF GETTING IN A RELASHIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE? No. BEEN IN A RELASHIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE? Yeah BEEN DUMPED? No. DUMPED SOMEONE? Yes. HAD A BROKEN HEART? No. BROKEN SOMEONE'S HEART? I'm a heartbreaker, what can I say. I walk past someone and break their heart. BEEN REALLY EMBARASSED? Yes. BEEN KISSED? Yes. KISSED SOMEONE? Yes. BEEN HUGGED FOR A LONG TIME? Yup. HUGGED SOMEONE FOR A LONG TIME? Yup. HUNG UP ON SOMEONE? Yup. BEEN HUNG UP ON? Yup. CARED ABOUT SOMEONE WHO DIDN'T CARE ABOUT YOU?Don't think so. HAVE YOU EVER STOLEN? Yes. *Shifty eyes* KEPT A REALLY DARK SECRET TO YOURSELF? I have many secrets. TOLD SOMEONE'S DARK SECRET? Never. STOLEN SOMEONE'S BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND? No. READ SOMEONE'S DIARY WITHOUT THEIR PERMISSION? Yes. FELT LIKE SPONTANIOUSLY KISSING SOMEONE? Yeah.
*****ARE YOU...***** FUNNY? Yes. SMART? Yes. FUN? Yup. ADORABLE? Merlin Yes. IN LOVE? No. IN A RELATIONSHIP? Not sure. MAD AT SOMEONE? Nope. INTO THE OPPOSITE SEX? Yes. FUN TO BE WITH? Yep. EXCITING? Yes. BORING? Nope. PREDICTABLE? Not really. SOCIAL? Yes. TALENTED? YEAH! SWEET? Yeah. TRUSTWORTHY? Yep. STUBBORN? Uh-huh. ENTERTAINING? 'Course! SPORTY? If I had a decent broomstick, or any broomstick at all, I would be. But at the moment I just stick to commentatingWhen I need to be. BORED RIGHT NOW? Yeah. MISSING SOMEONE RIGHT NOW? Nope.
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Post by Sirius Black on Jul 30, 2005 11:43:47 GMT -5
I did it! I know it sounds harsh to be triumphant, but I have good reason to be. Yes, I dumped Sadie, but I didn't get too embarrassed or angy or anything.
And it turns out she thought the same things as I did, so all went well. It turned out to be a mutual thing, actually. Though if anyone asks, I'll tell them I dumped her. Else my reputation will be ruined.
Anyhoo. I'm now a free and single man and can once again flirt with anything that moves! You can bet that I won't be getting into a relationship again, though. One-night-stands, kisses, a date or two I can cope with.
But it'll be a while before I actually ask anyone out again. I've learnt my lesson!
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Post by Sirius Black on Aug 16, 2005 3:26:20 GMT -5
Summer holidays. Any normal kid'd be happy that they've finally swung around.
'Cept I'm hardly normal. I'm amazing. But that's not the point.
The point is that I'm now at Grimmauld Place. It sucks majorly. It's only a little way into the holidays, and I'm bored and utterly depressed. My parents have already had frequent goes at me, Regulus is once again parading around like he's a little prince and Kreacher has taken to sneaking 'round my room. I wonder what he wants...
I tried opening the chest in my father's study today. Got a nasty wound because of it... bloody thing. It's been charmed so that it transfigures into a Grapphorn. A Grapphorn I ask you! He's insane that man. But at least I know there's something worth touching in it now. I'll order Kreacher to open it tomorrow, to see if it's just been charmed against me, or against everyone but my father. I'm hoping the answer is not the latter!
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