Lily Evan's inner thoughts

[Lily Evans]

<sup>Dear Diary,

I found out from James Potter today that Remus, who is meant to sort of like my best friend Anya, has a little crush on Sirius. At first I thought it was a bit strange but I guess it makes sense. They're like brothers, as close as.... well anything really. I think James was a bit worried about it because otherwise he wouldn't have said anything, would he?

It was nice talking to James Back to Remus, James told him to tell Sirius, and I said that he wouldn't make a very good girl becuase you don't tell someone you have a crush on them. But then by the end of the conversation I agreed with him. He should tell Sirius because then it's out in the open and Sirius will know...

I'm not sure how he'll react, Sirius might like Remus back or he might fall out with him, I'm not sure. But I think Black would stick by Remus whatever happened, he definately has his priorities sorted, well he has when it comes to friends anyway. I don't know, I guess I'll have to wait and see, but there's another problem. Remus doesn't know that I know. He might be really cross, with me and James Potter and I don't want Potter to get in trouble because of me.

Lily</sup>

[Lily Evans]

<sup>Dear Journal,

Today I got sent a picture, it's beautiful. It's a picture of an angel and it looks a bit like me but it's far too pretty to be me. Whoever sent it is very good at drawing but I can't work out who did send it. It had a little note on it a 'thank you' but no signature. I went around the lake to try and figure out who sent it and to watch the sun rise. It was beautiful, the perfect beginning to a day...I'll write more later but now I'm going to watch the sun and the way the lake is sparkling more, sad isn't it?

Lily ~</sup>

[Lily Evans]

<sup>Dear Diary,

ARGH! Why do I screw everything up? Actually, why does Potter screw everything up? I thought we were getting along and then he goes and snogs some random tart in an old classroom. Then I went to Remus for comfort and ended up kissing him, he kissed me back and Sirius saw! Then he continued to insult me and Remus and ran off to tell James. If that wasn't bad enough my best friend since forever hates my guts because I snogged her ex-boyfriend. Also, I found out that Remus is a werewolf, I wasn't really sure what to make of that but I guess it's okay because he's still the kind Remus that I have known and loved (as a friend) since first year.

I really hate Potter, he's so arrogant and I was right about him dropping girls when they became less interesting, also I now know how poor Severus Snape feels to be the butt of one of Potter's cruel jokes. I'm going to stand up for him more often now. I can't believe how much my life has cahnged in the past few days.

I feel bad for Remus because I got him in trouble, and it was entirely my fault, and I don't care what Potter and Black think now, they can go ... actually I'm too polite to say what I am thinking. Anyway I have to go now, transfiguration, yay!

Lily ~</sup>

[Lily Evans]

<sup>Dear Diary,

Today was pretty basic until this evening. I finally found the courage to write to Anya and ask her to meet me so we could sort things out. I was pacing around the grounds and then she came out. We made up and she told me that she's found a new love interest; Kai Charlton.

As in Tobias Charlton.

The guy that I messed up with a few months ago, and Anya said she hated. How could she go out with his brother? But then again, I suppose he's Kai not Tobias, and she's Anya not me, who seems to mess up everything. I feel so stupid and ugly, I don't know what it is. There's a dance coming up, and my best friend has a date but I don't, I don't know, maybe I should just leave boys alone for a while, after all whenever I get to like one they are snatched away.

Enough thoughts like that, time for potions, whoopdidoo (sense the sarcasm)

Lily ~</sup>

[Lily Evans]

<sup>Dear Diary,

Today was..interesting. I went outside, to see if I could find Kai Charlton, to see if he was good enough for Anya. That's sounds bad doesn't it? Like I'm some over protective mother, maybe I am...well anyway, I went outside to check him out, and I listened to his conversation with his twin brother for a while. He was talking about how smart, funny and beautiful Anya is and what he should do on the valentines dance. It was really sweet, it was enough to convince me that he cared for her.

But then they found me.

They found out I had been listening to their conversation, well I think they guessed that I had, but strangely they weren't annoyed like I thought they would be. They were really nice. Kes and Kai seem like really nice boys, but I just hope Anya doesn't hurt him.

That sounds so silly, I went outside to check Anya wouldn't be hurt and now my alliance has shifted to Kai who I've known for a maximum length of ten minutes. Well, the reason is, I think Anya is in love with Remus. Actually in love, at the tender age of thirteen. It sounds so stupid but I think it's true and so does Kes, who stated it so bluntly this afternoon. I'm not sure if Anya feels the same way, or if Remus loves her back, but I just don't want it to end horribly for anyone, not for Remus, Anya or Kai.

I'm so confused, but this time it's about other people, not myself. I just wish I could wave my wand and everything would be fine for everyone I cared about, but that's not how it works is it?

Love Lily ~

p.s. Still haven't got a date for the valentines dance, gah! I'm going to be alone, again, on valentines day, how utterly depressing...</sup>

[Lily Evans]

<sup>Dear Diary,

Why is Sirius such an insufferable show-off? Today we met our new teacher for defence against the dark arts, he's called Professor Corbett. He seems okay, except he sort of looks like an angry purple rhino when he gets angry...

Anyway, what happened was we were working on this advanced spell that causes a bright light to erupt from your wand, momentarily blinding an attacker. Corbett asked Remus and Sirius to go to the front and show the wand movements, he distinctly told them not to say the incantation, but nooooo Sirius just /had/ to shout it didn't he? Corbett even gave us all these warnings about permanent blindness etc, but Black just ignored them completely! Some people had to be taken to the hospital wing and several others, including myself, are still seeing these bloody annoying white spots. He is such an ass, and he also made Gryffindor lose 50 points!

Onto other news, the valentines dance is in a few days and nearly everyone I know has a date. I guess I can amuse myself by making napkins into swans and things....

Lily ~</sup>

[Lily Evans]

<sup>I found these stuffed in my notebook, I did them over summer so I thought I'd just stick 'em in here. ^^ Well this should be interesting...

01.) Name:: Lily Evans
02.) Middle Name:: Marie
03.) DOB:: 14th July

04.) Age:: 13

05.) Location:: Hogwarts

06.) Eye Color:: Green

07.) Hair Color:: Auburn

08.) Hair Length:: Mid-back

09.) Height:: 5’4 about

10.) Shoe Size:: 4.

11.) Glasses or Contacts:: Neither.

12.) Braces:: No.

13.) Single or Taken:: Single.

14.) Bad Habits:: Worrying and losing my temper.

15.) Fears:: Petunia? ^^

16.) Screen Name:: N/A



::_**_:: School ::_**_::



17.) Where Do You Go to School:: Hogwarts.
18.) Whats Your School Mascot:: A Lion, Snake, Badger and a Raven
19.) Whats Your School Colors:: Red and Gold
20.) Whats Your Favorite Subject:: Charms
21.) Whos Your Favorite Teacher:: McGonagell
22.) What Do They Teach:: Transfiguration
23.) Who Sits Next to You In Math Class:: I don’t have maths, when I used to, it was Jeremy Brown.

::_**_:: Love Life ::_**_::


24.) Do You Have a Boyfriend/ Girlfriend:: No.

25.) If So, Whats There Name::

26.) If So, How Long Have You Been Together::

27.) Do You Have a Crush:: Not right now.
28.) Do They Know::
29.) Have You Ever Broken Someones Heart:: I doubt it.
30.) Have You Ever Had Your Heart Broken:: I’m not sure, I don’t think so.

::_**_:: Favourites ::_**_::



31.) Animal:: Cat.
32.) Color:: Green
33.) Person:: All of my friends
34.) Subject:: Charms
35.) Season:: Winter
36.) Holiday:: Christmas
37.) Hobby:: Reading and studying.
38.) Sport:: None, but I do like to watch quidditch
39.) Feeling:: Loved
40.) Saying:: Forgetdaboutit.
41.) Word:: Stuff
42.) Month:: April
43.) Clothing:: My pink and purple socks!
44.) Jewelry:: Emerald necklace
45.) Food:: Chocolate!
46.) Snack:: Pumpkin Pasty

::_**_:: Friends ::_**_::

47.) Best:: Anya, Remus, Sadie
48.) Daringest:: Anya
49.) Funniest:: Sadie.
50.) Tallest:: I think it’s Remus
51.) Shortest:: Possibly Anya
52.) Loudest:: Anya
53.) Shyest:: Remus.
54.) Smartest:: Remus
55.) Blondest: …<br>56.) Craziest:: Sadie and Anya.
57.) Nicest:: All of ‘em!
58.) Sweetest:: Remus
59.) Weirdest:: Anya (remembering the red and gold robes!).
60.) Flirtiest:: ….

::_**_:: Have You Ever ::_**_::

61.) Had a Wish Come True:: Yes.
62.) Had a Dream Come True:: Yes.
63.) Broken a Body Part:: No, not yet.
64.) Fallen in Love:: I don’t think so.
65.) Done Something You Regret:: Yes.
66.) Tripped and Fell in Public:: Once.
67.) Sang in Public:: I sang in front of the girls once, but I don’t think they count as ‘public’.
68.) Cried in Public:: I try not to.
69.) Kissed Someone Besides Family:: Yes.
70.) Been in a Car Crash:: No.

::_**_:: The Last ::_**_::

71.) Thing You Did Before Getting on the Computer:: Wrote my potions essay that I have to do over the summer.
72.) Person You Yelled at:: I’ll give you three guesses…<br>73.) Person You Hugged:: Anya or Remus
74.) Person You IMed:: ...
75.) Time You Cleaned Your Room:: Yesterday.
76.) Song You were Listening:: ‘Ben’ ~ Michael Jackson
77.) TV Show You Watched:: Wheel of Fortune
78.) Movie You Watched:: Star Wars.
79.) Time You went to the Movies:: Last month.
80.) Time You Cried:: Yesterday.
81.) You Took a Shower:: This morning.

::_**_:: This OR That ::_**_::

82.) Coke OR Pepsi:: Coke
83.) Tall OR Short:: I don’t mind.
84.) Flowers OR Candy:: Flowers.
85.) Math OR English:: English
86.) Blink 182 OR Sugarcult:: Who?
87.) Mickey OR Minnie:: Minnie
88.) Middle School OR High School:: Errr
89.) Boyfriend OR Girlfriend:: Girlfriend.
90.) Single OR Taken:: Single.



::_**_:: Word Association ::_**_::



91.) bead:: necklace
92.) bed:: pilowfight.
93.) sexy:: sausage
94.) phone:: call.
95.) tough:: toenails.
96.) neato:: Righty tighty!
97.) leather:: trousers
98.) weird:: sisters
99.) so:: needle
100.) easy:: going.
101.) test:: score
102.) nerd:: brainy.
103.) falling:: in love
104.) air:: clouds
105.) hot:: sun

::_**_:: Random ::_**_::



106.) do you sleep with a stuff animal:: Yesh *blush* .
107.) do you like snowballs:: Not when they are directed at me.
108.) are you in school:: Not at the moment, I’m at home.
109.) do you like to swim:: Yes.
110.) are you funny:: Sometimes..
111.) what do you think of water:: Sparkly…<br>112.) are you a blonde at heart:: No, I don’t think so.
113.) have you ever been to Maryland:: No.
114.) are you happy this survey is over:: I suppose, but now I have to go back to Petunia insulting me.</sup>

[Lily Evans]

<sup>Here's the second one, it made me laugh!

Type Your Name With Your…<br>
Eyes closed::: Lilt



Nose::: lily



Chin::: ,.lkji,.lh



Wrist::: l,.il.y



Elbow::: lily



Turned around in Your Chair::: ‘p’i


Computer Mouse:::

!..*( Basics )*..!



Name* Lily

Birthday* July 14th.

Gender* Female.

Eye Color* Green.

Hair Color* Auburn.

Screen Name* N/A



!..*( Current )*..!



Mood* Upset

Clothes* Jeans and a top (muggle clothes).

Shoes* Bare feet

Feeling* Ignored

Smell* Minty

People You're Talking to on IM* No one.

Reading* I’m reading up on advanced charms at the moment...

Watching* Petunia is watching Wheel of Fortune on TV

Listening to* Petunia yelling at me and laughing at the television



!..*( The Last )*..!



Person you called* Petunia

Person who called you* Grandma.

Person you IMed* Nobody.

Person who you yelled at* Petunia

Thing you said out loud* “SHUT UP!”<br>
Thing you ate* Chocolate frog (which made Petunia feel sick heh.)

Thing you drank* Cup of tea


!..*( Favourites )*..!



store* Honeydukes

brand* I don’t have one.

clothing* My purple and pink socks!

accessory* My pale green butterfly clip.

colour* Green.

name* I like…Hannah.

book* Ohhhh! Don’t make me choose!

tv show* Whacky Races! Heh.

movie* I don’t think I have a favourite movie.

song* I like Micheal Jackson songs, he has such talent for such a little guy!

band* The Shocked Pumpkins are quite cool

album* We don’t really have much music in my house, we have lots of books



!..*( Random )*..!



Do you like to climb trees* Sometimes.

Do you have an allowance* No.

Do you like reading* Yes.

Do you like going on the computer* It’s okay, except it’s quite a new thing

Do you like cheese* Mmmm…cheese…that’s a yes

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend* No.

How many nicknames do you have* Three that I can think of, but I’m sure others have a few which I wouldn’t like…<br>
What are they* Lils, Evans, Petal

Do you get along with your parents* Yeah, they are brill!

::: you :::



full name::: Lily Marie Evans

date of birth::: July 14th.

age::: Thirteen.

location::: 21 Penny Lane





::: the color of my...:::



hair::: Auburn.

skin::: Pale with a few freckles.

eyes::: Green.



::: do you have...:::



braces::: No.

glasses or contacts::: No.

if you do which one::: Neither.

piercings::: Yes.

if so where::: Ears
tattoos::: No ~ I am only thirteen.

if so where::: No where.



::: favourites :::



color::: Blue.

season::: Winter

actor::: Hmm, I’m not sure.

actress::: I don't know.

movie::: None.

band::: Shocked Pumpkins

song::: ‘Ben’

smell::: Baking bread, flowers, I love that smell when you blow a candle out.

holiday::: Christmas.

candy::: Chocolate frogs probably



::: this or that:::



coke or pepsi::: Coke!

sunny or rainy::: Rainy.

christmas or valentines day::: Christmas.

lily or rose::: Rose.

purple or pink::: Pink

skirts or shorts::: Skirts.

math or history::: History.

computer or phone::: Phone.



::: random :::



do you have your own room::: Yes, when I’m at home but at school, no.

if you don’t who do you share it with::: The other girls in my house and year...

what is your screen name::: N/A

do you have a boyfriend/ girlfriend::: No.

do you wear jewelry::: I normally wear earrings and occasionally a necklace.

: I have great friends.
: someone to love.
: chocolate.
: my friends
[im begging]: for a hug.
: big thumbnails
: for love.
: Potter
: my sister (my real sister).
: rejection.
: The sound of crying
: for my socks.
: most people.
: after a party.
: for my friends.
: Flush the toilet twice?
: In private
: by myself.
: want company.
: my feelings down.
: people.
: in the Library.
: my friends.
[have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing]: No.
[if so, when and with who]: This is unavailable to be answered.
[favorite place to be kissed?]: N/A
[have you ever been caught "doing something"]: No.

Basics:
Nickname(s): Lils, Evans and Petal.
Initials: LME
How old do you look?: Thirteen?
How old do you act?: My age?
Glasses/Contacts: Neither.
Braces: Nope.
What makes you happy? My friends.
What upsets you? Bullies

First:
Best friend: Anya.
Real boyfriend: I suppose it would be George Harlett…heh.
Real memory of something: Dad teaching me to ride my bike.
Date: 23rd April 19 1965
Kiss: Not too long ago.
Screen name: N/A
Self purchased album: Like I said, we don’t have much music
Pets: Ebony ~ Owl
Piercing/tattoo: Ear piercing.
Enemy: I don’t really have an enemy, I hate Potter, but he’s not an enemy.
Big trip: Went to America when I was 8
Detention: I haven’t had one yet.
Time breaking a bone: I haven’t broken a bone, ever
Sleepover: Round Sophie Green’s house when I was 9
Hangover: Never

Social Life:
Best friend(s): Anya, Remus, Sadie maybe Sirone
Boyfriend: None.
Hobbies: Reading.
Are you center of attention or the wallflower: I normally get dragged into the limelight, but I don’t enjoy having attention.
Would you rather be with friends or on a date: Be with friends
Best hangout: Common room

Who- People:
Have known the longest: My friends, I didn’t know them before Hogwarts.
Argue the most with: Potter
Always get along with: Remus
Is most trustworthy: All of the people I class as my friends are trustworthy
Makes you laugh the most: Anya and Sadie.
Most interesting to talk to:Anya.
Has been there through all the hard times: Anya.
Has the coolest parents: Ummm, I’m not sure
Is the most blunt: Anya
Is the smartest: Remus
Best Mannered: Remus
Best Dressed: All of ‘em?
Most talkative: Anya
Most Innocent:Ummm

Last:
Car ride: This morning, we went to the shops
Movie seen: I can’t remember
swear word: …<br>beverage consumed: tea
Person you called: Petunia.
That called you: Grandma.
TV show watched: Wheel of Fortune
Shower: This morning.
Shoes worn: My slippers ~ they have bunnies on them! ^^
Item bought: New robes from Madame Malkins.
Annoyance: She’s sat in the front room watching the TV
Web page visited: Huh?
Movie you rented: Lord! I can’t remember! Petunia just sits in front of that TV all day long watching films, I can’t remember what the last one was.
CD you listened to: Uhh.
CD you've bought: None?
Person you were thinking of: Petunia, and how to throttle her

Now:
What are you wearing: My pyjamas! I never get dressed till midday in the school holidays!
What song are you listening to?: Nothing.
What's the weather like?: Quite warm but showers are due later.
Current obsession: Nothing.
Current Addiction: Chocolate?
Talking To: Yelling at: Petunia

YOUR LIFE____
[x] they call me: Lily
[x] also: Lils
[x] sex: Female.
[x] my first breath of air: Huh?

[x] age: 13.
[x] status: single
[x] occupation: Student.
[x] nationality: English.

____FAST FORWARD____
[x] college planning to go: I won’t go to college, I’ll graduate from Hogwarts and go out into the wizarding world.
[x] future resident of: England?
[x] wedding: White wedding, either on a beach somewhere or a winter wedding maybe, or a summer one in the back garden. Doves should fly out at the end of the ceremony and …as you can see I haven’t thought about it /that/ much.
[x] children: I don’t know, give a girl a break here, I’m only thirteen

[x] looking forward to: Seeing my friends at school
[x] NOT looking forward to: Seeing a certain pair of black haired boys

____PLAY____
[x] feeling: fed up
[x] listening to: Someone snorting with laughter.
[x] Talking to: No one.
[x] doing: This survey.
[x] craving: more tea.
[x] thinking of: BUY A BLOODY VOWEL!
[x] hating: Stupid Wheel of bloody fortune

____LOVE?____
[x] love is: love-ly (heh)
[x] first love: I don’t think I’ve had ‘love’ just like.
[x] current love: …<br>[x] love or lust?: Love.
[x] best love song: ...
[x] is it possible to be in love w/ more than one person @ the same time?: No, you can be in love and then be lusting after someone else, but you can’t be in love with two people.
[x] when love hurts: it aint worth it..
[x] true or false - all you need is love: False.
[x] have you ever been in love?: I don’t think so.
[x] is there such thing as love @ first sight?: Perhaps.

____THE OPPOSITE SEX____
[x] turn ons: Nice smile
[x] turn offs: Anger management issues...
[x] does your parents' opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: A little, but they’re pretty laid back anyway
[x] what kinda hair style?: Doesn’t matter, looks aren’t very important
[x] the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you?: give me an unasked for hug
[x] where do you go to meet new people?: I don’t? They just sort of…appear at Hogwarts
[x] are you the type of person to holler n ask for numbers?: No.

____PICKY PICKY____
[x] dog or cat: Cat
[x] short or long hair: Uhh..
[x] sunshine or rain: Rain.
[x] moon or sun: Moonlight.
[x] basketball or football: Basketball.
[x] righty or lefty: Righty.
[x] hugs or kisses: Depends on who they're from.
[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: 10 best friends!
[x] bf/gf or best friend: Best friend
[x] got tv or radio: Radio
[x] starbucks or jamba juice: Who?
[x] mcdonalds or burger king: McDonalds, but only just.
[x] summer or winter: Winter.
[x] written letters or e-mails: Written letters.
[x] disney or nickelodeon: Huh?
[x] car or motorcycle: Car
[x] house party or club: House party.
[x] sing or dance: Both! Heh, but only in private
[x] freak or slow dance: Slow dance.
[x] yahoo messenger or aim: Neither.
[x] google or ask jeeves?: Uh.

Name: Lily
Location: 21 Penny Lane.
Color of eyes: Green.
Hair color: Auburn.
Shoe size: 4.</sup>

[Lily Evans]

<sup>Dear Diary,

Valentines disco turned out to be okay, even without a date. But I'm thirteen, most of the boys my age think girls have 'cooties.' I met a new girl called Milly, she's in second year and she's really cool, I kind of wish she was in my year because I spent most of the evening with her, turning the sloppy disco into a night club type thing. Tres cool!

Also, Anya ended up in the hospital wing after falling down a flight of stairs! I went to visit her and I should really go again tomorrow after the Hogsmeade trip. It blows because she isn't allowed to come (she did break her leg though, so I guess she has an excuse.)

Anyway, about those things up there that I stuck in. I didn't realise how long they were, I really don't have a life. Anyway, see you later.

~ Lily ~</sup>

[Lily Evans]

<sup>Dear Diary,

Interesting... very interesting.

Why do I seem to be sorting out everyone else's problems other than my own? I am only thirteen and yet I sit down and act like an agony aunt for anyone who wants me to. It seems like everyone has a life while I just sit and listen about other people's. Sometimes I surprise myself with what I come out with though. I mean, I haven't known love, yet I can comment on it like I understand it completely, it's really freaking me out.

I spoke to Tobias today. It's been the first time since..the incident. Well, I found out that he wanted to apologise, through a letter and then we just got talking. He's not the bad guy everyone makes him out to be. Okay, so we had a few problems in our relationship but I think he is really, truly sorry and he seems to really care about Ace. Hell, he even told me that he loved him, so I can't hold a grudge against the fact that he kissed the guy. It was...interesting because after about five minutes of talking to him I was trying to sort out his problems.

I went to visit Anya and gave her loads of choclates from Honeydukes, I just pray that Madame Pomfrey doesn't notice the choclate stains on the seat by Anya's bed. She told me that she loves Kai. That's right /loves/ him. You're probably wondering why I'm not freaking out about Tobias yet I'm stressing over Anya, well it's because Tobias is sixteen and knows his feelings a lot more than Anya, who is only thirteen. If she loves him then that's great but what if doesn't reciprocate the feelings? I think I'll talk to him about it while Anya's still held up in the hospital...

See! Gah! This is meant to be a diary about me and my feelings, and yet here I am writing about other people's lives. Eurgh, I need to get a life, maybe I can get one as an Easter present...

Love Lils ~</sup>

[Lily Evans]

<sup>Dear Diary,

I haven't written in here for a while. Well, a while for me anyway. Easter is over and I got a few eggs. Even got one from Petunia, although it was only a creme egg and I sent her a huge Honeydukes finest chocolate egg. Still, at least she remembered me at Easter, right? Whatever. I'm not sure I'm going to harbour the hope that one day she might like me again for much longer. I mean, really, what's the point? If she has developed so much hate for me over the sheer fact that I'm a witch, I'm sure I could hate her for being a muggle. No! Because then that makes me as bad as some of the Slytherins who torment the younger students. No. I won't hate her because she's muggle, that's not like me and I'm not even sure I could. Argh! Why can't I have at least one definate feeling? Hate should be easy, but no, I have to complicate things. Like always.

Lils ~</sup>

[Lily Evans]

<sup>Dear Diary,

I am so cross I could scream. At breakfast someone put all these leaflets around the hall and they were all cuttings from Robyn's diary. I know she's in Slytherin and we've never really talked but I felt so bad for her. Someone had printed her journal, I mean, how evil can you get? And that's not the worst part, I'm pretty sure it was Anya who did it! Yes, my Anya, best friend Anya! Then Robyn's brother had a go at her so I had a go at him and it all went so wrong.

Then in potions Potter and Black decided to slip some slugs into my potion and it changed colour, so instead of producing a coughing potion, I made one that turned the drinker into a chicken! Yes, a chicken. And then the teacher sampled mine! Mine out of 30 cauldrons! I failed it and it was all those stupid boys faults. I did have a nice conversation with Remus today, but that was about the only highlight.

Love Lils ~</sup>

[Lily Evans]

<sup>Dear Journal,

Why me? Why did he have to choose me of all people for him to ... 'like' (if you can call it that.) After calming down for a while and leaving me in peace for a couple of months I thought maybe he'd got it through his thick head that I /DON'T/ I repeat /DON'T/ like him. But then today he goes and asks me out, I refus and it's just like normal. Except, I turned my back on him and he came up behind me and tried to -Ick- /hug/ me! It resulted in my elbow connecting with his face before he could get those horrible hands anywhere near ... me. Urgh! He's so annoying and now I need another shower just thinking about how close he was. Yuck! -Runs to shower and scalds self on hot water.-

Lils ~</sup>

[Lily Evans]

<sup>Dear Journal,

I'm out on the grounds and it's so beautiful. Most people have gone off to Hogsmeade so I'm free to bask in the sunlight, which is lovely. Anyway, I was looking around and this poem just came to mind so I thought I'd write it down.

The sunlight comes down through the darkness and people are there.
Laughing and jumping around without a care.
No one notices the little boy over there,
He's pale and blonde and almost invisible but he's stood off,
Watching the other people play around him, almost touching him but,
at the last moment they veer off and change direction.
The trees give him the shade in which he stands
And the sunlight avoids him too, as do the other children.
He's noticed by one, and one alone, who won't talk to him.
She's afraid. Afraid that she'll be an outcast too.
The boy is left alone. Alone in the shade while the others play in the sun.

Yeah I know it's a bit random but you know, it just popped into my head and I dragged you outside with me. Heh. Time for a snooze now, I think. ^^

Lils ~</sup>

[Lily Evans]

<sup>Dear journal,

Found these under the sofa in the common room so I filled 'em in. xD You can have a good ol' chuckle if you want. They are pretty random.

1.Do you write in a journal or diary?: -Nods- ‘Else, what would you call this?
2.Do you keep an organizer?:No, but I find I’m quite organised without it..
3.Do you believe in love at first sight?: I suppose, I’ve never really found love so, I can’t really comment. I suppose some people fall in love at first sight, although, generally, that’s more lust and first sight…
4.Do you believe that every person has one soul mate: Yeah, I think so. But, for some people, it takes longer to find them than others.
5.Do you believe in god?: I believe in God but I’m not sure I believe the Christian spin on it.
6.Do you believe in everyone (even the beyond helpless)?: Yes, there is always hope for everyone, there is no one person who is completely evil.
7.Do you believe in having a good education?: Yeah, there’s plenty of time to have fun out of school, but while you have the opportunity to learn you should take it.
8.Do you believe in horoscopes?: I’m not sure, I’m a bit skeptical.
9.Do you believe in yourself?: I believe that I can achieve things if I try hard enough, is that the same thing?
10.Do you shower daily?: Yeah, if I get up early enough to avoid the queue.
11.Do you like this survey so far?: Meh. –Shrugs-
12.Do you like the person that sent you this?: Well, actually I found this under the sofa in the common room.
13.Do you cry easily?: Not anymore, I’ve learnt to deal with nasty comments and other horrible people –coughPottercough- without breaking down into tears.
14.Do you believe in Heaven?: Yeah I think so.
15.Do you believe in hell?: I don’t know, possibly not because I think everyone has a bit of good in them, even if they can’t see it, or refuse to show it to others.
16.Do you believe in reincarnation?: Oui. I was French in my last life. (xD)

*Favorites*
1.favorite day of the week: Tuesday (Double Charms)
2.favorite ice-cream: Tropical Fruits
3.favorite movies: I’m not sure, ‘Singing in the Rain’ possibly?
4.favorite actors: I dunno, doesn’t really matter.
5.favorite actresses: -Look up-
6.favorite quote: “You are /so/ immature.”
7.favorite songs: I prefer reading to music, but I guess Michael Jackson is quite good, for such a little guy.
8.favorite music groups: I don’t really listen to much music.
9.favorite music singers: Again, don’ really listen to music.
10.favorite holiday: Christmas or Easter (Cause of the chocolates! xD)
11.favorite season: Winter.
12.favorite colors: Scarlet and gold and sometimes green.
13.favorite flowers: Daisies.
14.favorite book: ‘Subject me to Hell.’
15.favorite school subject: Charms.

*When you hear ___ you think of..*
1.Baseball: What's baseball...?
2.Sexy: high heels
3.Red: heart
4.Warm apple pie: Winter evenings
5.Hot: Beach
6.Fish: Giant Squid
7.Girl: Anya
8.Amanda: kiss as in ‘I want a man da kiss.’ xD
9.Swimming: Early morning in the lake.
10.Bologna: Aunt Daisy and her icky food.
11.Annoying: Pothead all the time.
12.Loser: Potter
13.Cool: Anya and Remus
14.School: Worthwhile and has helped me make the best friends I could ask for.

Friendships*
1.Who is your overall~* top of the line~* best
friend?: Anya
2.Who is your 2nd best friend?: Remus
3.Who is your 3rd best friend?: Sadie
4.Who is your 4th best friend?: Sirone
5.If there are anymore, you can list them here: I have a lot of friends, but not particularly close ones.

WHICH OF YOUR FRIENDS...
6.Is the funniest: Anya
7.Do you tell your dreams to: Anya and Remus
8.Do you tell your fears to: Anya and Remus.
9.Do you go to for advice: Remus
10.Have you dreamt about: All of the above mentioned friends.
11.Knows everything about you: Anya
12.Do you tell your secrets to: Anya and Remus.
13.Is the most shy: Remus
14.Is the loudest: Anya
15.Can't you live without: Anya, Sadie and Remus.
16.Is the most trendy: Sadie is quite trendy but Anya is a bit more mad in her fashion choices.
17.Can be the most annoying: Anya sometimes when she has her nasty moments or Sirone sometimes.
18.Lives the farthest away from you: I’m actually not sure.
19.Lives closest to you: -Looks above- I think it’s Sadie…
21.What do you look for in a friend?: humor, trust, intelligence and an affectionate nature.

*Relationships*
1.boyfriend/girlfriend's name: Don’t have one at the moment. Actually, I haven’t really had a proper boyfriend at Hogwarts. I had one in my primary school though xD.
2.crush: I don’t think I /do/ have a crush at the moment.
3.where does that special someone live?:N/A.
4.things you like in the opposite sex: Nice eyes that light up when they smile, a good sense of humour, a kind nature, someone who likes me for who I am.
5.when was your first kiss: I haven’t had a /proper/ kiss yet, though I did have a peck on the lips when I was 11, before I came to Hogwarts and I split up with my ‘boyfriend’ –snorts- of 2 years.
6.are you a virgin: Yes. If I haven’t been kissed properly, I doubt I’m going to have done /that/ am I?
7.the most romantic thing anyone has done for you was: Bringing me a bunch of roses and seeing me off the platform as we said goodbye –Wipes away a tear-
8.which is more important- personality or looks?: I think a good personality is more important, but it’s nice if the person is nice looking at the same time. xD
9.first boyfriend/girlfriend: Some girl who I don't remember.

*Creative Q's*
1.If you had the choice to spin around the sun, or
walk on the moon, which would you choose and why?: I’d walk on the moon because it’d be truly quiet. No noise, nothing and the solitude of that place is beautiful.
2.What color do you think best describes you and why?: Red because I’m hot headed.
3.If you could be doing anything right now, what would you be doing?: Climbing a tree and settling down with a book as I watched the sun take it’s slow path across the sky and dip below the horizon.
4.Would you ever share you heart completely with someone else? If yes- who~* if no- why not?: Yes, but I don’t think I’ve met them yet.
5.Which sense could you not live without, and why?: Touch, because I like the feel of things on my skin.
6.Have you ever written on a mirror? If so what did you write?: I once wrote all the things that I hated about my sister (I won’t repeat them in front of polite company) in lipstick. I was really angry at her for putting gum in my hair.
7.If you could change one thing you did in the last 24 hours, what would it be and why?: I would’ve finished that Potions essay because now it’s hanging in my mind that I need to do it.
8.Do you prefer sleeping outside beneath the night sky, or your cozy bed indoors?: Night sky so I can watch the stars winking at me. It would be nice to have some company whilst I was out there though…
9.What is the most beautiful thing in the world?: Seeing the good side of people for the first time.
10.Name one person whose changed your life for the better: Anya, Sadie, Remus.
11.What can someone do to you that would turn you on fully- physically or mentally- or both?: Er…be sweet and caring.
12.If you knew you were going to pass away within the next few days, what would be the last thing you say, and who would you say that to?: I’d probably tell Anya, Remus and Sadie that I loved them.
13.What is one thing that can make you smile no matter what mood your in?: Anya and her crazy talks that we have and talk about absolutely nothing with me.
14.If you could meet anyone, past or present, dead or alive, who would you meet and why?: I would meet Potter’s great, great Grandfather and demand what he did wrong to produce something so foul.
15.And finally, what makes you you?: School, friends and shouting at Pothead.

~~~True or False~~~

I like my name: True.
I am a teenager: True
I like school: True
I hate school: False
My school's cafeteria food is yummy: True, they basically cook a feast everyday.
I love the color black: False
I love the color pink: False.
I took a shower this morning: True
My hair is its natural color: True
My favorite subject in school is Lunch: False
I am straight: true
I like Math: True most of the time.
I own Rainbows: False, I don’t own them, ‘I just bask in their beauty’ ~ David Eddings..yeah, I read waaaay too much.
I hate beef: True.
I am a vegetarian: False
I hardly ever watch TV: True, Petunia hogs the remote and watches the –ick- shopping channel!
I'd rather rent a movie then go to the movies: False, I like to get out the house.
I get physical exercise every day: Yep, beating and shouting the stuffing out of Pothead tends to keep me well-toned.
I have had an eating disorder: False, I really like food actually.
I am short for my age: True-ish
I am tall for my age: False.
I love hoodies: False, I wear them occasionally, but I’ve become more partial to robes.
I hate it when: Pothead assumes I like him because I have legs and a skirt. Pfft. I also hate it when I get called a mudblood for no good reason. It’s just plain mean, but I have learnt to rise above it.

[glow=red,2,300]Here is the second random one. o.0[/glow]

1. What is your full name? Lily Marie Evans

2. What color pants are you wearing? –Blush- I can’t answer that! –Coughblackcough-.

>* why are you reading this?? Because I saved it from being destroyed by the flames from the fire in the common room.

>3. What are you listening to right now? Laughter from outside the portrait hole.

>4. What's the last thing you ate? A piece of strawberry cheesecake.

>5. Do you wish on stars? Yeah, when I can’t sleep I go and sit on the windowsill and wish on the brightest stars I find. A bit mushy, ‘eh?

>6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Red, because of my hot headed temper.

>7. How is the weather right now? Quite warm, even though the sun is just about to go down.

>8. Last person you talked to on the phone? Grandma, to say her dog had died. Poor Poppy.

>9. Do you like the person who sent you this? Nobody sent me this. I found it.

>10. How are you today? A bit tired but good, I haven’t had an incident with any annoying boys today, so I’m in a good mood.

>11. Favorite drink? I quite like apple juice actually, although pumpkin juice is a favourite of mine and so is butterbeer. Mmmm, the frothy-ness…

>13. Favorite sport? Quidditch.

>14. Hair color? Coppery red.

>*.how is your hair looking? It’s in two plaits actually and looks quite neat today.

>15. Eye color? Green.

>16. Do you wear contacts? No.

>17. Siblings? Sister, Petunia.

>18. Favorite months? December - Christmas

>19. Favorite food? Chocolate...mmmm.

>20. Last movie you watched? Oh, it was this one about the dragons and a prince and then….can’t remember.

>21. Favorite day of the year? Christmas day because everyone is so happy and I get presents xD!

>22. What do you do to vent anger? Yell at people, throw my shoe at the door in my dormitory.

>23. What was your favorite toy as a child? It was this cute little green teddy with his eyes made out of this glassy, black material and it was called Mr. Snuffle…I mean, I don’t really remember and I /certainly/ don’t still have said toy…-shakes head.- No, not me.

>24. Summer or Winter? Winter.

>25. Hugs or Kisses? Hugs from friends but kisses if they come from the right person.

>26. Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate.

>27. Do you want your friends to write/e-mail back? It's a journal, nobody will write back on account of they will never see it.

>28. Who is most likely to respond? No one.

>29. Who is least likely to respond? Nobody is going to see this, ‘cept Anya and we’ll have a giggle over it…

>30. Living arrangements? Hogwarts dormitories/home with parents and ma soeur.

>31. When was the last time you cried? In my first year when I broke down because I couldn’t cope with Pothead and Slytherins but I haven’t cried for ages because I have learnt to deal with stuff.

>32. What is under your bed? Nothing because I clean it out. –Innocent look- what? You didn’t expect anything less did you?

>34. What did you do last night? Ate, slept, talked to my friends, did the transfiguration essay.

>35. Favorite smells? Baking of bread and the smell of my Nan.

>36. What inspires you? Brilliant authors and people who are genuinely kind to everyone.

>37. What scares you? Being alone, forever.

>38. Plain, Buttered or Salted Popcorn? Salted.

>39 Favorite flower? Daisies.

>41. Number of keys on your key ring? One for my trunk and one for my house.

>42. Can you juggle? Yeah. –Grins proudly- When I was younger I used to put on shows for the little kids down my road and I used to juggle, play games with them and the radio out on my front lawn so we could all listen to the music.

>43. Favorite days of the week? Tuesday

>44. What did you do on your last birthday? I went to the ice skating rink near my house with some friends from school and some muggle friends too. It was pretty funny.

>45. Do you own a donor card? o-o

>46. do u like anyone at this moment? I’m not sure, watch this space, ‘eh?

>47.are you thinking of anyone right now and who is it? Who that annoying horse-like laughter belongs to and how to shut them up...maybe choking is an option…

Lils ~</sup>